So…. Funny Story

It has been a little over a year since I posted and oh what a year it has been…..

I am currently keeping a human alive, on the better side of postpartum depression, I am back in school working on a career change, and well….I am a single mother and soon to be divorced. So yeah, it’s been a lot but the best thing about it all is in the midst of all the chaos, I am happy. Yeah, some days are bad, but for the most part, I’m okay. This small iota of a place in my life will not last long and I know that all things will work out for my good if I keep my faith and hope in the right places.

What I have learned from this whole experience is that there is nothing you can do to keep another human being happy or want you. I’ve always known that but it’s different actually experiencing it. You can do everything perfectly and give them everything they can possibly want or desire, but if they aren’t happy, there’s nothing you can do. I also learned a lot about myself. I will literally shut down if I get overwhelmed or feel underappreciated. There is something innate in me to show people how I need to be loved. The hard thing is, if a man or anyone else doesn’t learn or pay attention, I take that as not caring. Because how hard is it not to pay attention to someone you say you love?

Well, here’s the update…..here’s the tea…..here’s my new phase in life. I don’t have much to share other than I’m back muther******s